Sunday, November 26, 2006

If You're Missing Out

I have the strawberry sundae all over my hands and your hands and your eyebrow and my knees and your neck and it's on the ground and we giggle and we disappear and we laugh and we lick face.
ANd we don't say it.
Unless you say sitting next to each other says it.
It does, does it?
It'll work out perfectly.
We smile a lot.

Thursday, November 23, 2006

Thanksgiving

Now, upon seeing that no one knows each other's birthday or anything of the like, the whole concept of this particular turkey day is just shot out of the water.
I know Brianne's own grandpa's birthdate, where he grew up, and the sports he played in high school.
Shoot, I don't know that about my own grandpa.
Hell, he's in prison.
Enough for comic relief though, I'm more interested in the finer, more lurid aspect of what I'm getting at (and am I not always a bit dreary?)
Well, if I'm asking for myself to make a point, I suppose I cannot really find one.
"Oh, he likes you."
"Oh, he doesn't even know me."
"Oh, you're not the kind of person you have to know to like."
"Oh, see you later."
"Oh, I had a bad day."
Laying down, gosh, the times I've seen you naked.
But if we're talking reality, no, I never saw you without your clothes.
It's so cliche and boring to hear about, but I love it when you play guitar.
Everything is a cliche, isn't it?
So much for the scheduled paintballing together on Wednesday morning. That's come and it's passed, and I'm sure we won't really talk about it in serious again.
If we do though, I'll kick your ass.

Oh, here's a fun one: monogamy! Marriage!
Clearly, that means nothing to poor ****y because after all the kids and his wife and the job he has to have, he still puts it all on the line for his (much) younger girlfriend, though she probably wouldn't appreciate being dubbed as so.
Of course, I'm not defiling their emotional devotion to one another, girlfriend and Y, but can there be an emotional devotion?
I wouldn't know.

As for here, well, I'm sitting in a double wide, badly remodeled, with pig slop sitting out on the table for everyone, and I honestly couldn't tell you much of the person who made it.
Blood links us together, so we're supposed to be thankful together, and sometimes, I wish that I cared.
Perhaps that deems me a bad person, but I don't.
Sure, I'm thankful for some of the people there.
I appreciate my sister, and brother and his wife.
I'm going on yet again, would you look at that.

So really, here's a rant and a rave of the daily life I have yet to master.
And who am I kidding?

Perhaps, stuck in the corner and crammed under the coffee table, there is that one little part that we forgot that makes up the pieces that we are, and that when others ask, we simply have no answer.
Maybe we've only merely forgotten. Maybe it doesn't exist.


Off to another stanza...

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

We'll Play Monopoly

we shivered in the wind
(but together)
go on to bite my hand
imprint me
no need to plead for me to stay
(because, i'll never tell, but I won't ever)
Not soon
(because ever always ends)
I felt it
my hand on your back
and your insides spasming
"no Sarah
don't leave"
Of course, now it's a little comical
but then, I was just making sure your face went into the dirt
not
your vomit
(because your face was only going there or there)
My hand on your back never went away
And then i picked you up
[alcohol poisoning]
couldn't work in the morning
of course
when you smile
I suppose that I just can't see anything else
no one ever had that
kind of thing
i felt you grab my elbows
but a shame..
I never felt the kiss
you gave me