In THE dark of FUCK

In the midst of clouded perception and conception and detection, there is found the underlying of what is never said, never though, always felt. There isn't anything put in reverse of what there would never be.
It doesn't make sense.
For reasons I've found by heart, I've sworn to find the darkness through it's very interior being, to find bliss, to find shit, to find blood and death and life and greatness.
Because I can't spend forever in the dark.
So, i hold on to it for dear life, for its very dearness.
I've given it so many tries. It's here! Its hear!