Do you think you'll be able to?

Look to your left more often
I realized just the other day
How long it's been since I
Broke down and I had to tell
myself sorry for my lack of
baptism, of building back up
from my falling out, from my
breaking down.
I need to look to the left
because last week I found how
much balance I've lost, how
much I've fallen wrong.
Really, how do I run
to you, to Truth, when
I put up stone to hit
fortitude?
Water changes to vapor
while I fade with it to
the top, to ever-existant
non-existance to watch. And
I love it. Not you.